Day Three

Three days in a row.. I know it sounds trite, but hey, I'll take whatever positive I can get right now. I'm just walking for 15 mins right now. I wonder how much and how often I should increase my time. What I really want to do is run. I've always wanted to, but I'm nowhere near ready for that psychically... yet.

I've been having what I guess you'd call heart palpations lately. I thought they were part of the panic attacks I started having a few months ago, but the panic attacks are gone and the flutters are still there. Sometimes as much as 5 times per day. Honestly, they scare the crap out of me. They only last for maybe a minute, but it still freaks me out.

It's almost time for me to take that first trip to the grocery store since I came back. This makes me extremely nervous. I still don't know what kind of eating plan I want to do, So I have no idea what to buy... I guess some more research is on order. I put a weigh in chart on the side of the blog and I am going to update every Monday. I tend to get on the scale everyday, which is way to often, but I'm only counting what it says on Mondays.

So.. My current goals:

* Walk for 15 mins every day

* Drink 64 oz. of water every day

* Eat Breakfast, Lunch, Dinner, and at least two snacks every day

The water and walking are self-explanatory. Keeping up with my meals is to help me break my horrible eating habit. I tend to not eat until I am ravenous, and then I stuff myself. I am hoping that this will help me be more conscious of this habit.

Thanks for reading,

Bean

The Dating Project - Day Two

My son was so stoked today that he started asking me at 5:30 if it was time for our 'date' yet, lol We went at about 6:30. He rode his skateboard today, but I think he decided that from now on the bike is a better choice. Just 15 minutes, but it's worth so much to him and to me.

I called today and made an appointment to see the Dr. which I haven't done in over a year.

Not so great for someone who has Diabetes and High Blood Pressure. I have to see a different doctor since mine left.. I didn't even know until I called.

I just recently started treatment after a serious bout with anxiety attacks that almost landed me in the nut house..literally. Apparently, I am Bi-Polar. Not sure how I feel about this since I really have no idea what on earth it really is. In my head, it's Abby's mom in E.R. ,totally off her rocker if she isn't on her meds. I don't think I'm crazy.. just stressed out, depressed, overwhelmed. I'm trying to withhold judgement (stupid shrink) until I learn more about it.

Thanks for reading

Bean

TWO YEARS??? SERIOUSLY??

Oh my WOW... It's been almost two years.. I can't believe it!!! Well... Got married, BFF got married too. Just moves for the fourth time in the last year...UGH! Boo just turned nine and Bud will be 13 in January!!! According to my scale this morning my weight was 299.8. Under 300 finally!!! I just did my first 15 min. walk in over a year and OMG can I tell!! My son and I now have a standing date @ 7pm for a 15 min walk/ride. I walk, he rides, lol. This is all I am doing... no calorie counts or anything else yet... One habit at a time.. The first of November, I'll add another habit. I may do it sooner, but I will not feel bad if I don't. If anyone is still reading this then I'm sorry I disappeared. I hope I can run into my former,, and I'm sure thinner,, blog buddies!!

Thanks for Reading,

Bean